According to RPM magazine, in 1983, when my family first stepped foot on Canadian soil, the best performing singles topping radio charts included four songs by Michael Jackson: โBillie Jeanโ, โBeat Itโ, โWanna be Startinโ Somethinโ,โ and โSay Say Say,โ which he performed with Beatles legend, Paul McCartney.
I was eight months old that year, but MJโs melodies very likely soothed me to sleep on long drives or during crib time while mom busied herself with household chores. Itโs no surprise then that I was totally obsessed with the King of Pop during my childhood and well into adolescence. My parent’s certainly didn’t discourage this when they bought me a VHS of “Michael Jackson Moonwalker”, which they let me watch ad nauseam.
MJโs music videos forced my childhood mind to explore many uncharted areas within myself. โThe Way You Make Me Feelโ tantalized my latent sexuality. โBeat Itโ and โBadโ provoked feelings of resistance and disobedience. โMan in the Mirrorโ inspired self-reflection and benevolence. Every video was a sermon imprinting images and ideas onto my fledgling soul that likely influence my subconscious to this day.
โThrillerโ was probably my first encounter with grotesque horror. Memories of this video are seared into my brain like a childhood trauma. As I recall, we would be visiting my cousins in Sackville, Nova Scotia. They were all well into their teens. As often was the case, MuchMusic television โ which happens to be just a year younger than me โ would be playing from the wood-encased cathode-ray tube display in the living room (i.e., “television” for you zoomers).
Since my birth year (1983) and well into the early 90s, โThrillerโ was a cornerstone of music television. That infamous creek of a haunted door slowly opening the album version of the song and the footsteps that followed jumpstart listeners to attention. The door-creak forced you to drop your action figures. The eerie footsteps and wolf howl that followed gave us enough time to turn up the volume, because even if you hadnโt memorized โthe zombie danceโ you were bound to get down.
The music video was a full cinematic experience that ran 13 minutes and 38 seconds – the first of its kind. It began with a disclaimer foreshadowing the offence that was to follow:
Due to my strong personal convictions, I wish to stress that this film in no way endorses a belief in the occult.
Michael Jackson
If that wasnโt enough to deter the kids, Michaelโs terrifying transformation into the school-jock cat-eyed werewolf should have definitely sent them running. My response was something in between. I loved Michael Jackson and I knew that he would never hurt me (though inappropriate touching certainly wasn’t off the table). I could also tell from watching my cousins that I was in no real danger (though my bodyโs fight/flight response suggested otherwise). So Iโd hide behind the couch, peaking between my fingers like an ashamed voyeur. At first, I spent most of my time in hiding, but gradually I learned to distinguish between entertainment and reality. Until, one day, I could finally enjoy all 13:38 minutes unperturbed.ย
I still couldn’t watch Freddy Krueger though. Unlike Michael Jackson, who I trusted, the Springwood Slasher was still a potential threat to my life.
I think itโs safe to say that Michael Jacksonโs influence on developing minds was ubiquitous during that period – especially among the immigrant diaspora. However, I also had other musical influences during my childhood that were not as common, at least not amongst my neighbourhood peers.
Of course, I was (and still am) a huge fan of Raffi. It was impossible to escape the reach of this childrenโs music troubadour. His sing-along songs are as canonical as Church hymns in English-speaking pre-schools far and wide. Yet, while most children in my region had to listen to Raffiโs โBaby Belugaโ album on repeat, I had the option of switching to Red Grammar.
Red Grammar was essentially Raffi for kids who grew up in Bahaโi households. You might not be familiar with Red, but youโre certainly familiar with his son, Andy Grammar. Of course, Andy has taken the family friendly, feel good, sing-along genre to the international mainstream, but his fatherโs music was mostly known to a small faith community that I was lucky to be a part of.
Hits like โI Think Youโre Wonderfulโ and โListenโ were iconic to me, and still trigger a flood of nostalgia. Those of us who were fortunate enough to grow up with Red Grammar regard him as family – a fact affirmed every time we hear his son on the radio and say, โHey, Andyโs playing!โ
Another obscure (at least, for 80s Bedford, Nova Scotia) musical influence during my childhood was the ancestral genre of Persian classical folk. It was sort of like magic conjured during late-evening gatherings where piping hot teas filled hourglass shaped estekans; ripe fruit, salted nuts and seeds, lime roasted almonds, and delicate sweets were heaped immoderately on a centre table; and women and men lounged casually around an aged Tabrizi carpet, richly decorated with flora, paisleyโs, and traditional patterns. ย
And they would sing. Their voices rang together as they chanted verses penned by the great Persian poets of the distant past or songs of rebellion forged in the hellfire furnace of recent history. Songs like โNavaโiโ โ penned by 18th century poet Tabib Isfahani and purportedly put to music by Nazar-Mohammad Soleymani in the 1900s โ would beckon the heart to return home, while โGol-e Sangamโ, written by Bijan Samandar and composed by Anoushiravan Rohani recounts unrequited love. One of my personal favourites, โGol-e Yakhโ by the 70s psychedelic singer-songwriter, Kourosh Yaghmaei, just devastates the heart.
What should I sing?
My youth is gone and so is my voice,
Ice flower has sprouted in my heart.
Kourosh Yaghmaei
I never quite learned these songs nor appreciated them until recently, but I do recall feeling a deep solemnity while my parents, aunties, and uncles shared the music that connected us to our ancestors. I didnโt necessarily appreciate the words nor their meanings, but I could tell from observing my elders that these were sacred melodies that demanded reverence and respect. A bridge for our hearts to journey back to a home that left us.
If nothing else, hearing my mother and father intone these songs is like opening a window into paradise, though it’s been many years since I last heard them sing.
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